The journey of an eccentric programmer

2002-12-22T10:21:00.000-08:00

They're talking about depression on TV and i wonder am I depressed? I'm too young to be depressed. i'm only 19, well technically 20 since my birthday is on January 1st. Well actually i just heard on TV that early adulthood is popular time to be depressed. I guess I am then. But i have to fight this. I dont know how, guess i'm just going to have to keep praying about it.

2002-10-07T14:35:00.000-07:00

Today was hard to describe, I'm feeling sick, because i have the flu and a little depressed cuz i lost five family members in a car crash yesterday. Yep!! My cousin was driving my uncle home when a red car broke a stoplight. It raises a lot questions in mind about life, its fragility and its purpose. I wish i had died instead of them, they had family that loved and depended on them, but i have no purpose and no one needs me around. It's quite sad! But i'm trying to keep good spirits, i've decided that i can take life for granted anymore, i have to stop idling and get serious about God and my goals, i dont want to die without accomplishing what i'm here for. Today i had my first real introduction to the Linux OS, i know! i know! i'm sort of late, but i've always been a diehard windows users, but now i'm learning some interesting things about Linux, i might be a Linux fan yet!! We'll have to wait and see.

2002-10-04T05:29:00.000-07:00

Today i changed the layout of my blog site. I'm really beginning to like this blogger concept, in fact i think i'm going to try and build my own prog to do the same thing to work with my site, or maybe i can get this blogger to work with my site, it would save me a lot of trouble. i think i'm going to throw in a little to make this site of the shizzle. :-)

2002-10-03T21:37:00.000-07:00

Today was more or less an ordinary day, and since i hate my usual day, that means it wasnt very good. I did get to drive to school though, so that was a plus. I cant believe its such a major thing for me to drive to school, i figured i'd have my own car by now. But i guess good things come to those who wait. I played Starcraft today, but then again it was an ordinary so youd have to expect that, and i vow that i will never play again, atleast until holidays, i honestly love the game but its just taking up too much of my time and i already have to fight my siblings for computer usage. I NEED to start programming again. I feel so worthless. At this rate i'm gonna have to start considering another hobby. But i know i'll never do that. I was born to program. I think. Right about now though im baffled as to how to proceed. i want to continue with game programming, but i also wanna do some app programming concentrating especially on networking and security. I aim to learn Visual Basic, Java and QT Designer. It just boils down to discipline and time. Theres gonna be a tutorial for VB next week at school, no doubt i'm gonna be there. Aside from programming i need to start drum lessons, but everytime i call the drum guy he aint home. Blast him! You know i havent played basketball for days now. No wonder i'm so depressed i'm not doing the things i love. Yawn! need sleep now though. Peace Out!

2002-10-02T09:57:00.000-07:00

Ha! :-) i guess it would be fitting to start this online blog with a little exclamation. I always relish the chance to express myself, cept i dont do it very often. I cant describe the feeling of relief i'm experiencing right now after all the forms and signing that i had to do to get this little blog off and running. Before i really start getting down to business I think i should take this time to thank God for the creativity of the mind and the medium of prose, without either blogs just wouldnt be possible and thank you blogspot.com for giving me a FREE chance to make it all happen on the web. I guess i'll jus say a little about myself, my name is Alex Dennis and i live in Jamaica cept i was born in the United States. I love to program, play basketball and the drums, and of course i love the Lord Jesus Christ my saviour, i tolerate school, but only because its an opportunity that i cant afford to waste. By the way, i go to the University of the West Indies and i'm 19 years old. And thats about all i want to say, I'm in the middle of researching for a newspaper article , i write for a national paper here in Jamaica. Well thats enuff for today. bye bye!